Hi everyone! Have I been gone for like… ALMOST a full year? Yes, I have! Am I back now? Maybe!

Starting off, my aunt used to edit my posts, she was formally a writer (she now doesn’t do much of anything), so she was very familiar with grammar, etc. I am now old enough to edit and post my own posts, without anyone else’s help, so please excuse the slightly improper style now! (I swear I paid attention in English… Is it obvious? Probably not.) I wont lie and say I had no time to write, because frankly I did absolutely nothing but lay in bed, and sleep for like, 3 months straight this year. I’d get an idea, then I’d procrastinate writing it, then forget the idea, over and over again. In fact, I’m writing this on Thanksgiving Eve (is that even a thing?) at 3AM, because I got absolutely sick of procrastinating.

Now, let’s get on to a recap of this entire year, and an insight into my life. (Mommy, I know you’re reading, I swear I won’t spill all the family business LOL.)

Earlier this year, I had to travel (multiple times) to film for a role, I had genuinely no support around me except very few family members, and some people in my mom’s circle. My own father did not help me after promising he would, and casted all the responsibility on my mom to figure out. My mommy ABSOLUTELY CARRIED me from having to decline the role due to a lack of financial support from my father, despite us being in a rough spot financially. I swear she literally manifested the money out of thin air, and the next thing I know, I’m traveling to film in 3 days.

You may wonder why I just decided to air out my family after disappearing for like, 30 years, but I want to dedicate this part of this post to ANYONE who may have no support around them:

Firstly, for anyone that may be reading this, YOU DO NOT NEED SUPPORT TO FLOURISH. It may be heartbreaking to not have your friends or even family not support you in following your dreams, but some of the biggest celebrities made it to where they are with absolutely no one around them. You may look at these nepo babies, no hate to them either, and think the ONLY way to make it in life is to be born into success and connections. The only “connection” you need is charisma, talk to those people you see at fancy lounges and golf courses! How do you think everyone else connected with each other? They spoke, they weren’t intimidated by “what if they don’t like me?” or “what if they think I’m different than them?” They spoke with confidence, and surrounded themselves with people they wanted to be like. If you’re a teenager, and can’t just go out and socialize whenever you want, get on social media! Start creating content that aligns with what you want to be. If your dream is to be an actor, get on social media and engage with other actors, make posts showcasing you preparing for auditions, show off your personality!

If you’re younger and can’t do any of this yet, start preparing! Download movie scripts online, print them, and see how well you can memorize them (or memorize them from your phone, I write notes on my pages, but this is achievable with like, any editing app too.) record yourself, and analyze your facial expressions/delivery, be honest with yourself, if someone said these things to you with your facial expressions and tone, would you think they’re being sincere?

Just because people won’t support you, does not mean you cannot support yourself, other people’s opinions of you can not control YOUR actions. I’m blessed and have God and my mommy (and some other amazing people I met) by my side, so I wasn’t completely alone in my journey, and truly, that was all I needed. Even with my mom being so amazing and God continuously blessing me and protecting me, I will admit, it got lonely looking around and realizing most of my own family deserted me, and even some of my friends judged me. I had to learn a lesson really young: Some people won’t support you, that’s okay, and it’s not your responsibility to try to figure out why. Your responsibility is not letting that stop you from the bigger picture.

It’s now 4:06AM and I am TIRED, so I have to end this post here, but please remember to take care of yourself, Happy Thanksgiving!